[A delivery of one Ghiradelli chocolate square, 92% cacao. The chocolate is past its best-by date, but because of its cacao content, it should still be fine to eat. A small note written on a scrap of magazine is wrapped around the square. The ink is slightly smudged.]
odinochkaMargarita SonDate: 2024-11-07 08:01 am (UTC)
I do not know. I would like for things to be easier between us but I find it difficult to trust you. I am trying not to guard myself so much though, like you said.
[…] I am sorry about Seattle. And your mother. Did she enjoy dancing?
linemanJohn "Quirkless" HwangDate: 2024-11-07 09:28 am (UTC)
How do you sleep at night if you don’t trust me? Genuine question.
She wasn’t sure. She was going to find out. […] Though I have this feeling your mother danced. Because I cannot see you enjoying dancing, so your mother must have. For there to be balance.
[A second later] A considerable amount of nonsense from me.
Hah. Don't tell me it's so foul you're getting nightmares. And don't tell me you never watched her dance and wanted to join her?
Not sensitive. I try to observe. It seems to me most relationships involve some sort of balance. Even if two people are very similar, they will work to provide something the other does not have.
I am not saying that. They are usually good dreams that turn bad only at the end or otherwise bad dreams that are still somehow good. And of course I would have liked to join her. I have many such regrets now.
Not at all. A person can become so self-sufficient they forget how to need things from others. And then of course the other becomes so desperate to provide the one needful thing to the person who seems to be beyond everything. Even worse when that other does not know how to provide what other people need. But I think he identified the pattern before I did. And he was away most of the year. [...] Why do you ask?
You are being very cryptic about these dreams. Usually when people are evasive about a topic they keep mentioning, they want to have their meaning coaxed out of them. But I don't think that's what you want.
Ah. No. Just my observations of other people's experiences, not my own. [...] Most people who form connections share similarities. People like what is familiar, seeing a bit of themselves in another face. From what I've seen.
WHAT ARE YOU DREAMING ABOUT, WOMAN [...] Are you dreaming about things that happened to you? I mean whatever happened to you before you came to Lundegaard.
I once thought so, when you first arrived at Lundegaard. But then I realized they mask deep difference.
odinochkaMargarita SonDate: 2024-11-08 02:32 am (UTC)
Sometimes, yes. But lately I have been dreaming about things that have never happened to me. And you are always there. Maybe it is only that I am sleeping in your bed and so I am thinking of you before I fall asleep. I do not know.
Alright. […] I guess that is what I think too then.
linemanJohn "Quirkless" HwangDate: 2024-11-08 04:49 am (UTC)
No. […] When I said you should take my house, I said so because the idea of you being uncomfortable bothered me. But I think I may have instead made us both uncomfortable.
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Delivery, 11/6
For the horde and the teasing.
DM, 11/6
What made you change your mind about letting the horde pass through?
DM, 11/6
Someone said to me that people can do bad things for good reasons. And then I recalled how my mother had intended to learn square dancing this year.
DM, 11/6
[…] I am sorry about Seattle. And your mother. Did she enjoy dancing?
DM, 11/7, early morning
She wasn’t sure. She was going to find out. […] Though I have this feeling your mother danced. Because I cannot see you enjoying dancing, so your mother must have. For there to be balance.
[A second later]
A considerable amount of nonsense from me.
DM, 11/7, early morning
It is the same with me. I am not sure. I never really learned. But you are right about my mother. She is a beautiful dancer.
I do not think you are being nonsensical. Are you sensitive to the idea of balance?
DM, 11/7, early morning
Not sensitive. I try to observe. It seems to me most relationships involve some sort of balance. Even if two people are very similar, they will work to provide something the other does not have.
DM, 11/7, early morning
Was it like that with you and your father?
DM, 11/7, early morning
Not at all. A person can become so self-sufficient they forget how to need things from others. And then of course the other becomes so desperate to provide the one needful thing to the person who seems to be beyond everything. Even worse when that other does not know how to provide what other people need. But I think he identified the pattern before I did. And he was away most of the year. [...] Why do you ask?
DM, 11/7, early morning
I thought maybe you were speaking about him when you referred to two very similar people, since you said you were alike.
DM, 11/7, early morning
Ah. No. Just my observations of other people's experiences, not my own. [...] Most people who form connections share similarities. People like what is familiar, seeing a bit of themselves in another face. From what I've seen.
DM, 11/7, early morning
Do you not think we share similarities, you and I?
DM, 11/7, early morning
WHAT ARE YOU DREAMING ABOUT, WOMAN[...] Are you dreaming about things that happened to you? I mean whatever happened to you before you came to Lundegaard.I once thought so, when you first arrived at Lundegaard. But then I realized they mask deep difference.
DM, 11/7, early morning
Alright. […] I guess that is what I think too then.
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Be so careful. Say one inadvertent double entendre and Maggie will skin me alive.[…] […] Aha. What am I doing in these dreams?DM, 11/7, early morning
Good God.Maggie, I’m sorry.DM, 11/7, early morning
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[…] Anyway. We will get our assignment today. We should begin our day and complete preparations here in Lundegaard.
DM, 11/7, early morning
When we get back from our assignments, I will find another place to stay. Thank you, John. For the chocolate and for everything.