Also exactly what you would say. But thank you for the notice. Sobering but ultimately helpful to know how close one is to the cliff's edge.
It's not easy for you? I mentioned you to Mara's second; she said she had spoken to you or would. I suppose the challenge for you is that you must actually talk to someone first before they will like you.
[...] And about Court. It would be good if you did not tell anyone what happened.
Yes. Despite the fact that you seem to know exactly what I am likely to say and how I would say it, I believe you have an incomplete picture of me. I have a difficult personality. I am not deluded about this fact. [...] And Nat did DM me and I am talking to her. We are meant to have a Salon, of sorts. I might even go to her game night after physical therapy, if I have time. See, I am making an effort.
I know you have a difficult personality. That isn't what I'm talking about. The night Hank and Logan were killed, when you permitted yourself to be around others, they were grateful for your presence. People look to you for reassurance when you let them, Margarita. Difficult personality notwithstanding. But anyway, I am glad you are making an effort to be more sociable with others. After physical therapy, I am going home.
I don't understand her reason why, not completely, but
[...] [...] [...]
What if I told you everything you accused me of doing and being, flirting on the bulletin board, having unduly prurient interests, being a bad man, everything, is true. And I'm sure you know how men like that are: they look for weak spots in an otherwise discerning woman's armor and every so often get lucky. Now I am remorseful and do not want Court to be perceived or judged for what has happened. Would you accept that, and be kind to her?
Ah well, I will not argue with you on that point. We did a good thing that night. I only hope that my judgement continues to inspire faith as we move into the Summit meetings. [...] Are you sure you will not come? I think you and I would make very good euchre partners.
[...]
I would find it difficult to believe, that you have been bad to or unclear with Court. You are both allowed your desires. If I am unkind to her, it has little nothing to do with your carnal activities.
I don’t know. […] I have a hard time focusing when things get too loud. It will not be enjoyable for you if I am your partner. Gideon is good at card games, ask him if you need someone.
Maybe someone can be bad without even trying or wanting to, and it’s just who they are. I think the only thing she cares about is not being perceived or judged, at any rate.
I’m 31, Maggie. You can’t be much older than me. And I’m hardly a healthy young man.
I suspect it’s valuable for you to know things about other people, for whatever reason, but if you keep digging in here, physical therapy will be very awkward. I told you everything you need to know, maybe more than I should have. Everything else is my business.
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DM, 10/28, early morning
Ah, your late night caller. That sounds complicated. […] Good of Gideon though. I have been trying but it is not so easy for me.
DM, 10/28, early morning
It's not easy for you? I mentioned you to Mara's second; she said she had spoken to you or would. I suppose the challenge for you is that you must actually talk to someone first before they will like you.
[...] And about Court. It would be good if you did not tell anyone what happened.
DM, 10/28, early morning
Yes. Despite the fact that you seem to know exactly what I am likely to say and how I would say it, I believe you have an incomplete picture of me. I have a difficult personality. I am not deluded about this fact. [...] And Nat did DM me and I am talking to her. We are meant to have a Salon, of sorts. I might even go to her game night after physical therapy, if I have time. See, I am making an effort.
[...] I was not intending to, but why not?
DM, 10/28, early morning
I don't understand her reason why, not completely, but[...] [...] [...]
What if I told you everything you accused me of doing and being, flirting on the bulletin board, having unduly prurient interests, being a bad man, everything, is true. And I'm sure you know how men like that are: they look for weak spots in an otherwise discerning woman's armor and every so often get lucky. Now I am remorseful and do not want Court to be perceived or judged for what has happened. Would you accept that, and be kind to her?
DM, 10/28, early morning
[...]
I would find it difficult to believe, that you have been bad to or unclear with Court. You are both allowed your desires. If I am unkind to her, it has
littlenothing to do with your carnal activities.DM, 10/28, early morning
Maybe someone can be bad without even trying or wanting to, and it’s just who they are. I think the only thing she cares about is not being perceived or judged, at any rate.
DM, 10/28, early morning
DM, 10/28, early morning
Who is calling you bad? And is that what you really mean? Who would judge you for being a healthy young man with appetites?
DM, 10/28, early morning
I suspect it’s valuable for you to know things about other people, for whatever reason, but if you keep digging in here, physical therapy will be very awkward. I told you everything you need to know, maybe more than I should have. Everything else is my business.
DM, 10/28, early morning
And I was not trying to gain anything over you by asking. I am just curious. But alright, I will not ask anymore awkward questions.
DM, 10/28, early morning
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I’m sorry for being rude. I’ll see you tonight. It won’t take long, you’ll be able to make it to Whitney on time.